Life just seems to get more and more complicated as time goes by! Or am I just more aware of the complexity now? Who knows!
I have committed resources to replacing the windows in the house, upgrading to energy efficient windows, installed properly. I have also committed resources to upgrading the attic insulation, to R50, it is currently R10. These changes will likely make a dent in the heating and cooling bills, and make the house less drafty. We are giving a pass on the basement insulation, it got too complicated, too many things to move out into a storage locker, and we aren’t quite sure what we will want to do down there once the dust has settled after the garage is functional. Best to wait, we decided. Renovation decisions are still joint decisions, we both have an interest in Mist Cottage.
It is snowing this morning. Luckily I have no “away” activities planned for today, so I won’t be stepping out the door, or behind the wheel. The morning has been busy, confirming contractor contract details, dealing with administrative correspondence, filing, and odd jobs of that nature. Today I am hoping to finally complete the first draft of the web site I have been upgrading, it has been a lot of work, but I think the results are worth the time spent. I will be practising Tai Chi, and spending time on my elliptical machine as well; it seems I have to list these two activities to convince myself that they need to be done!
Right now all the changes in my life are just painful, intimidating, and exhausting, as I continue to cycle through all the stages of grief, in no particular order or duration. I am thinking that eventually all this change will seem a bit exciting. That is in the long term. One foot in front of the other!
Worldly Distractions
Weather
SPECIAL WEATHER STATEMENT IN EFFECT
Snowfall of 5 to 15 cm today.
Snow is expected to begin this morning across much of Central and Eastern Ontario. General snowfall amounts of around 5 to 10 cm are likely, however areas close to Lake Ontario and the St. Lawrence River may see as much as 10 to 15 cm. The snow will taper off late in the afternoon or early evening.
This snowfall will likely have a significant impact on the afternoon commute. Motorists are urged to exercise caution.
-8°C
Date: 9:00 AM EST Wednesday 7 February 2018
Condition: Light Snow
Pressure: 102.6 kPa
Tendency: Falling
Temperature: -8.0°C
Dew point: -9.6°C
Humidity: 88%
Wind: E 16 km/h
Wind Chill: -15
Visibility: 1 km
Quote
“But pain… seems to me an insufficient reason not to embrace life. Being dead is quite painless. Pain, like time, is going to come on regardless. Question is, what glorious moments can you win from life in addition to the pain?”
Lois McMaster Bujold
I’m not so sure about that quote you have today, about pain. Being one who has pain 24/7, I cannot wholly subscribe to life being fine with non-stop pain going on. It darkens every ray of sun that shines through for me, even if just a little bit. I try to not think about it (thus, crochet!) but it’s always there, lurking, nagging at me, in the not-so-far-background of my consciousness. When I dream, this pain is not with me. So I’m thinking that in my “other” or “parallel” lives, things are very different.
Bex, chronic pain is a different matter altogether!!! I feel for you, I really do, such a harsh and unrelenting burden. I became indirectly aware of chronic pain when, many years ago, I was sitting out at the picnic tables where I worked at the time, during a lunch break. The discussion was, if you could have anything, what would you wish for. Most people answered with the usual types of answers, money, a flash car, a big house… but one co-worker simply stated, “I would be free from pain.” I’ve never forgotten his words, so sincere, so real, so poignant.
You are a beautiful dreamer!